Power & Love in action…

At the beginning of November, my hubby, our sons and I had the privilege to attend The Power & Love School in Cape Town and jeewiz, what an eye opener.

Now all of us know, travelling with a baby and a toddler is difficult, so why not throw in a 4 day conference from 9am till 11pm.   It was taxing, but the Lord was so gracious.  Though there were 3 sessions of speakers/teachings during the day, there was also 2 outreaches.  They called it Love in action sessions…

Let me give a quick recap on what the school was about.  Basically its living out the love of Jesus in every day life.  And from a place of Godfidence, miracles will flow.  Pretty simple.  It’s basically how a Christian’s life should look like everyday.

Before the first Love in Action ‘outreach’ they called the confidant ones to the front.  I actually thought I was a confidant one, until we had to live it out…I found the praying and speaking about God easy, it was the actually approaching people that terrified me.

So hubby and I went to the Tyger Valley Shopping Centre, and I don’t know if it was because we were on a mission, but the place was filled with people in wheelchairs and with walking rings.  God has a lovely sense of humor.  After a couple of awkward attempts, my hubby decided he wanted a smoothie.  So we stood waiting, the Lord gave me a word of knowledge for the lady next to me.  Something quite simple.  So it turns out they were at the shopping mall awaiting a doctors appointment for her husband at the hospital right next to the mall.  And there you go…God opened a door for us, just like that.  We got to pray for Oom Kobus and his neck.  I didn’t get all the details as I was so psyched that the Lord lined up people for us to pray with.  I knew he had to go for an operation and that they would discuss that at his appointment that afternoon.  He has had reoccurring headaches for 3 years.   He was drinking 10 headache pills a day!  We prayed, we trusted and we parted ways.

The next morning on our way to the mall again, we had a quick recap on our previous day and everyone we prayed for wondering if there was any change.

So guess who we bumped into at the mall.  Oom Kobus and Tannie Hettie!  His neck pain and headaches were gone!  Weg!  Sihambile!  Come oooonnn!!!  Thank you Lord Jesus!!!  He will never let you down!  By stepping out and being uncomfortable, we rely on HIM to be our comfort!

Turns out the specialist did tests on Oom Kobus for 3 hours the following day and couldn’t find anything wrong.  No operation needed!  And no more headache tablets!

We serve an amazing Father, who does not want to see His children live in bondage!

(sorry for all the exclamations – I am just so excited)

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Luwellan, Oom Kobus, Tannie Hettie, Landen and I  (Arden was there, but sleeping in his pram)

We were part of a miracle!!!  God performed a miracle through us!  If we were pumped before, this just made us even more keen to spread God’s love all over the show.

God is good, all the time!  And all the time, God is good!

And all it was, was living life, buying a smoothie, and we got to pray for someone and they were healed through Jesus Christ.

Jesus did not die so that we may live with ailments in our body.  Jesus died for our wholeness.  He died so that we may live.  Not for us to just be, but for us to speak His word, declare His goodness and work His miracles.

I want to live in God’s fullness, I want to see people touched by God’s love on a daily basis!  And if I am not living that way,  then what is the point of life.

Till next time mommies,  be blessed!

When worldly things affect the ‘Unworldly’

John 17:13-18 New Living Translation

In this passage, Jesus prays for His disciples

‘Now I am coming to you.  I told them many things while I was with them in this world so they would be filled with My joy.  I have given them Your word.  And the world hates them because they do not belong to the world, just as I do not belong to the world.  I’m not asking You to take them out of the world, but to keep them safe from the evil one.  They do not belong to this world any more than I do.  Make them holy by  Your truth, teach them Your word, which is truth.  Just as You sent me into the world, I am sending them into the world. ‘

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After that statement, I have a confession to make.  A while ago, my hubby and I, had run with the pack.  We had forgotten this truth.  We had been put in a situation which had made us feel tied down and stressed, worried.  About our future, our financial situation.

Quite honestly we felt trapped, and as if life was dragging us down.  Moving backwards in life.  Can anyone relate?

In this context, the ‘life’, stress, worry and pressure is all about money!

Spiritually, we both have an intimate relationship with the Lord, and our family life is absolutely amazing.  We are so blessed with our boys and the love and life we share with each other.

So why do we allow the enemy to steal our joy through worldly circumstances?  He has no authority to intrude into our lives.   He only comes to steal, kill and destroy.  That is all he knows.

Where we are now is temporary, and so is our worldly circumstances.

Mat 6:26 says Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are?

This is just one of the many promises of provision from the Lord!  Now believe it!  Live it!

Till next time mommies, be blessed xxx

 

 

A Woman of Worth

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Sonia and I at the Women of Worth graduation

A couple of weeks ago, a dear friend invited me to join her at a cocktail event celebrating the end of her mentorship program to a lovely young student.  The aim was to mingle with and encourage the next generation of entrepreneurs and working ladies.  This was all very exciting to me and I immediately said yes.

About two days before the event, I started freaking out a bit.  I had nothing to wear.  What do people wear to cocktail events these days?  I would need to wear heals and a pretty dress – and makeup?!  I raided my cupboards with the hope I could find something, which thankfully I did.  I also found heals which I literally had to dust off.  Being a mom of a 3 month old, dressing up and making myself look/feel pretty is not one of my most important priorities right now.  Surviving is.  So this was quite a daunting experience.  Those who know me, also know that I don’t really wear makeup.  I slap on some eyeliner and mascara and that’s pretty much as good as it gets.

But here I was, getting ready.  I perfectly timed everything (Atype/Control freak), so that I could feed the baby, just before I squeezed myself into my cocktail dress and actually spend more than 5 minutes brushing my hair and putting real makeup on my face.  Even before I left the house, I managed to hook my dress onto a chair.

During the evening, I stared around at all these woman – who are also mothers, sisters, friends, daughters, entrepreneurs, employers, employees – and I somehow doubted they had the same problem as me, as all of them looked so confidant and like they had it all together..  Some wearing high heals, some wearing flats, some wearing cocktail dresses and some pants.  All I could think of was that they obviously didn’t have a 3 month old at home.

But that was not the point. I didn’t need to wear a cocktail dress or heals – I don’t need to impress anyone with what I look like.  It is what is on the inside that starts friendships and helps mold young lives.  Not the clothes or makeup.  Confidence comes from within.

The mentorship program is called Women of Worth and there was the most beautiful poem read, that one of the mentees herself, wrote…wish I could get my hands on it to share that with you all.

Women of Worth…

How do you define your worth?  By what you wear? Or how beautiful your hair is?   Or how perfectly contoured your makeup is?  Do you measure your worth on how much you do for others or how perfectly your children behave?

We as women, have such a divine calling.   Our worth should be defined by what our Creator thinks of us, not others.

We are made in His imagine and what we see in the mirror, reflects on what we see in Him?  Dare I even say that?

So what does God think of you?

You are God’s masterpiece  Eph 2:10

You are so loved John 3:16

You radiate  Matthew 5:14

You are a shining light  Phil 2:15

You are a victor  Romans 8:37

You are valued  Isaiah 49:16

You are strong  Psalm 46:5

 


Have you seen a sunrise or sunset?  Is it not the most amazing feeling to know, that the same God who made that, fearfully and wonderfully made you?

I wish women, myself included, would stop comparing.

“By the grace of God, I am what I am.”  1 Cor 15:10

Be who God made you to be.  Live how He has already planned for you to live.

You are far more precious than diamonds and rubies.  Proverbs 31:10

Until next time mommies, be blessed!

A balanced lifestyle…

 

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That is me, pretending I have a perfectly balanced lifestyle

Hi mommies!

I have not written in 4 weeks and how appropriate of me, to be doing a write up on a balanced lifestyle.

There will always be certain things that are more important to different individuals, and they will spend more time doing that which they are drawn too.

I am a person that thrives on routine, therefor my family thrives on routine.  We have a certain supper time, bath time, bedtime…I just do well when I can control a situation. Any moms out there that can relate?  You call us um… control freaks.

Along with having a type A personality, I also have a problem saying no.  Not the ideal combination, but last year I learnt a valuable lesson.  I learnt that it is okay to say no.  Saying no to something that brings no value to your life or does not further your relationships is okay.   You are allowed to say NO!  So just break those chains of guilt off right now in the name of Jesus.

We live in a busy world, and our time is precious.  Don’t get me wrong, I have not turned into the NO-lady and I certainly do not have a boring social life.  I do invest time into activities or events, that do not necessarily add value to my life, but it might add to my children’s lives.

I am a Believer, above all, if you know me and you don’t know that – I am living my life totally wrong.  I am a wife, a mother of 2, a daughter, a daughter in law, an entrepreneur, a business owner of a company that has been operating since 2008.  I am in the process of opening a new business.  I am a friend, I would like to think to many. I am in our church’s worship team, and I love being involved in the life of the church.  My heart is to help people and I absolutely adore entertaining at home. I love exercising, but alas I don’t – not enough anyway.  Baking and cooking is something I do to relax.  I keep myself busy pretty much all the time.  Sooo….how about this balanced lifestyle thing.

Let’s see what the bible says about time management:

Ephesians 5:15-17

Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is.

Colossians 4:5

Walk in wisdom toward outsiders, making the best use of the time.

Psalm 90:12

So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom.

So what I am getting from these 3 verses – be wise when deciding what to spend your time on.

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So what does the bible say about having a balanced lifestyle?

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

Proverbs 11:1

A false balance is an abomination to the Lord, but a just weight is his delight.

There is a time for everything – we go through different seasons and in this season, although I would really love too, I can not get myself to exercise.   And in this season that I am in, I can not say yes to everything I would like too.  Because there are important things I need to attend to, like being a mother to my 3 month old baby.  And that is okay!

We as mothers do not have to put pressure on ourselves to conform to the world and what the world thinks we should look like and what the world thinks we should do.

It says in the bible that a false balance is an abomination to the Lord – so I will not pretend.  I will not pretend that I have it all together and that my life is perfectly balanced.  It is far from balanced.  But in this season, I need to make sure, that I manage my time well, I need to make sure that I am wise when drawing up my calendar.

God knows exactly what season each of us are going through and he does not ask us to be someone different than who we are.  He lavishly loves each individual, uniquely.

He does expect us to live for Him, in ALL SEASONS though.  So no matter where you are, you can bring glory to God in every circumstance.

1 Cor 10:31

So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.

Until next time mommies, be blessed!

 

Reflux…oh shucks!

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To tell you mommies the honest truth, I was stalling to write this post.    I was waiting on the Lord to heal my son from his reflux before I finished it, so that I can tell you all our awesome testimony.

I was challenging the Lord – “So here I am Lord, putting my life out there, wearing my heart on my sleeve,  to help other moms relate and feel normal, while bringing glory to You Big Guy – so please heal my kid, so that we can share our story.”  It was a pretty one sided conversation.  Until I got around to actual listening.

And then I was reminded that this blog is not all about sunshine and roses. Its about the real and the rawness of life.

Most moms, including myself, want to crawl in a ball under the duvet when we hear the word reflux.  Gosh, it makes me gag – excuse the pun.  For those who don’t know what reflux is.  It is also known as spitting up or oepsies in mommy terms.  It happens when the milk your baby has swallowed comes back up into his food pipe (oesophagus).

And it totally breaks my heart that my child has got to go through it.   Their little tummies cramp, their legs curl & they look uncomfortable most of the time.  And oh my….the sporadic screeching cries of pain!

The reflux journey is one of many trials and errors.  You read different opinions and ideas all the time.  Use colic drops, it helps with cramps.  Don’t use colic drops, it has alcohol in it.  Let your baby sleep at an incline.  No, let your baby sleep flat on his/her back.  Cut dairy out of your diet, or don’t cut dairy out of your diet.  Jeepers!

Then – my favorite – hold your baby up straight after each feed for 20 minutes.  Now, I am not saying I am the busiest person on earth, but what mom has time to sit still for 20 minutes at a time?  I don’t even know what that feels like anymore.

So in a nutshell, reflux sucks!  But…

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So on Sunday at church along with friends & family, we prayed for our Arden’s reflux.  And by the grace of God, he has been so much better.  Not 100% healed YET, but so much better.  Even his big brother Landen came to pray  – he told me that afternoon, that while he was playing outside, Jesus told him to come in and pray for boetie while tickling his head.

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And then on Monday, we got to see this lovely lady, Dr Ernsl Conradie, a Chiropractor.  I do firmly believe God has blessed certain people with amazing talents to help others while glorifying Him through their abilities.  And Dr Ernsl is definitely one of those people.  She clicked Arden’s back and neck into place…he gave sighs of relief.

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But still, Arden’s reflux is not 100% healed, but we are contending for it, as we serve a good good Father.  And even if it doesn’t get healed straight away, I will continue to say that God is good.  Because I believe God is good, all the time. He has already used Arden’s reflux journey to introduce me to new friends, who understand what we are going through.

And I know my God gives perfect gifts – and Arden is a perfect gift.  He was fearfully and wonderfully made.  He was knitted together in my womb by God Himself.  He has been set apart.

PS 139:14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well

PS 139:13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

Jer 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

So I know God heals!  I know God can heal! I know God does heal!  I just don’t know when God will heal, but He teaches us faith and perseverance in the meantime.

Till next time mommies, be blessed!

Toddler Rejection…

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Landen has always been a daddy’s boy.  He asks for daddy to do most fun stuff with him.  And that’s what dads do best – build amazing lego castles and wrestle and watch superhero comics.  Moms are boring – we cook, clean and do washing and a lot of the time, we moan about it and expect the family to notice.

I comforted myself with the fact that I saw Landen more.  I dropped and fetched him at school and spent the afternoons with him before his dad came home.  So I had that alone time with him, so when his dad came home at night,  he got his undivided attention.  So it was okay…right?   But no…

Deep down, my heart was sore.  I wanted to be the fun one.  I wanted him to choose me. But reality is, I’m not as fun as daddy.  And that is the honest truth.

I started implementing a Wednesday fun day after school – trying to be cool, more like daddy.  So we could do fun stuff, like go for ice cream or go to play areas, the game arcade, the traffic lights.  I even took him on a game drive once.

But he still chose his dad, every night.   I felt rejected.  So terribly used!

I thought things would change when Arden was born.  Surely when Lan can’t have my attention, he would want it.  When I can’t be on his beck and call, he would want to spend more time with me.  He would choose me.  That makes sense – he is going to want me, when he can’t have me.  Ha!

To my surprise, that didn’t happen.  He still only wanted his dad.

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One Sunday morning before church, I was getting dressed.  Landy was sad about something, so I called him to me and said I will give him a hug, because when people are sad, hugs make them feel better.  He said NO!  He said he wanted his dad!

I snapped!  I screamed saying that he should go to his dad then!  He looked at me blankly.  He just walked away.  I felt like an absolute dog.  This little 3 year old, not thinking anything by it, wanted his dad.  His most favorite person and here I am trying to convince him to like me more.

I needed alone time with the Lord.  During worship that morning at church, God spoke to me.

You reject me all the time Timann, yet I don’t hold it against you

Come oooonnn, don’t you just love God’s wisdom and His brutal honesty?  I reject HIM, ALL THE TIME!!!!  Not a fun thing to hear, but enough to shake my self centered head out of my self pitied state of mind!

Just this morning, I rejected God.  I wanted to pray for a lady’s baby – I knew I should have, yet I didn’t.  REJECTION TOWARDS GOD!

So here I am, getting angry at a 3 year old who has no idea that he is hurting my feelings and in all honesty, he shouldn’t have to worry.

Landy loves me, he spends loads of time with me.  We cook supper together every day.  He runs to me every afternoon when I fetch him from school, sooooo delighted to see MY face.  He tells me he misses me, and that I am the best mommy.  He tells me often that I look sooo beautiful!  That should be more than enough!

Our God is merciful to us everyday, as we reject Him constantly – should we not show the same mercy to our kids?  I know I should learn to!

Until next time, be blessed mommies!

 

 

 

 

The Esterhuizens – who are we?

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Luwellan and I met in 2005, he was studying and I was working 3 jobs just to get by.  We both went clubbing on our off nights and got introduced by a mutual friend.  Never in a million years did I think he would be my husband.  He was more of the nerdy type and I was more of a jock-ish kind of girl, but he had some charm to him that kept me intrigued.  After several occasions bumping into each other, I gave him my telephone number – yes, I kind of made the first move – and as they say the rest is history.

Months into dating him,  he admitted that he told one of his friends on the first day that we met, that I was going to be his wife – sy trouvrou.  How incredible is God?  We met at exactly the right time in our lives, and although neither of us knew the Lord, He had a plan mapped out for us.

We got married in August 2011 and gave our hearts to the Lord together in 2012 at an alter-call at the Storehouse Church – now our second home.

In December 2013, we had our first son.  We decided in March that year, that we would start trying to have a baby.  I did some research – googling is not always the right thing to do in situations like these – and read that an average couple takes roundabout a year to fall pregnant.  Lu, being a little reluctant, felt a bit more at ease.  He is a thinker you see, he needs to process everything.  I am more of an impulsive person, I do what my heart feels.  To our surprise, on the 19th of April, we were 5 weeks pregnant.  Wam bam thank you mam!  Meet Landen…our gorgeous joyful boy with the sincerest heart…

 

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We were pretty chuffed with ourselves that Landen was still alive and kicking, and he was such a cool kid, that we decided to have a second.  Lu was so excited, he decided we would have no less than 4 kids.  More of that later.

3 & a half years later, July 2017, Arden was born…Our miracle baby, our child of promise.

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I am not going to go into too much detail as yet, but we cried a lot of tears over this little guy, looooong before we were blessed with his life.  It took us a while to fall pregnant again, but we had a promise from God, and we held onto that.

The two most perfect additions, to our already existing family.

I too often hear parents only call themselves a family, once they have children.   Nee man! Lu and I became a family the day he liked it enough to put a ring on it. My life did not only start when I had my boys.  They are not my one and only.  They are not my beginning and end.  They are not the reason I wake up in the morning.  (although literally speaking, some mornings they are)  They did not take over my life, they added to it.   God does not only give us children to fulfill our needs to nurture nor to take His place in our lives.  He entrusts them to us, to raise them to glorify Him and to add to His Kingdom here on earth.  So we as parents, need to keep our hearts in check.  Our hearts should always be found in God.  He should remain our number 1, even when we feel like our hearts are walking around outside our bodies.

So that is us, The Esterhuizens.

Until next time, be blessed mommies.

Blogging? More like Momming…

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I started this blog 3 weeks ago, and in true mommy style, I am only typing my first insert today.

As I am typing,  I have a sick 3.5 year old and my 7 week old laying next to me sleeping and after a rough night, I am wondering why I am not doing the same?  I am really reevaluating my decision to start this blog, because sleep would be great right now.

But no…

This blog idea sprung to life when I was about 37 weeks pregnant with Arden, our second born son.  Being a mom has been one of the most challenging experiences I have ever had to go through and every single mommy I have met, has said that exact same thing.

So let’s not sugarcoat it, being a mom is tough.  It’s not all sunshine and roses.  In actual fact it’s more like feeding & burping or crying and pooping.

My goal with this blog is to share my momming with you guys.  My challenges, my failures, my ups, my downs and my life.  Being real, raw and relevant.

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If it weren’t for our gracious God, I would probably have thrown both boys out of a moving car by now.  Wait!  Here me out!  Please don’t phone child services on me, but I am serious!  I am being real and don’t tell me you haven’t had similar thoughts.  Maybe locking them in a room to cry it out or locking yourself inside a room for you to cry it out.  But God has given us an indescribable peace, grace and love in our hearts for our families.  Our children are a gift from the Almighty Himself and raising them, though difficult, is such an honor.

Through my mommy journey, I would like to honor the Lord, by raising my sons in His image.  Teaching them about His endless love, living in accordance to His will.  All this, in a world that is materialistic, broken and filled with meanies!

Sounds easy enough…so let’s give it a go!  Together!

Until next time, be blessed mommies!